Soulful Sadhak

There is a dictator, who’s living in my head. He tells me what to do, and keeps me awake in bed. And why I listen to him? Honestly, I don’t really know I just do what he tells me to Why can’t I just let go? He says: ‘If you let go you’ll be lost’ ‘If you let go you’ll go mad’ Facing a wall inside your head? And I feel all heaven will fall down, just because that’s what he said But maybe there is life beyond these dictator’s walls enclosing me If I stopped listening to him then maybe I could be free I could go and walk in the sun, enjoy it shining on my face Just sit down and have some fun And not be trapped in that small space It would be like a revolution, and heaven ‘d rejoice and sing So why can’t I make the resolution And for once do my own thing?

I just want to stop worrying all the time, worrying about whether I am doing things the right way, even worrying about whether I am being mindful enough. I want to stop getting caught up and carried away by ideas all the time. I just wish I would be a little more solid. I wish I could just feel a little more relaxed. I just want to live a simple life, and try to make the right choices, do good for my neighbour, and not worry too much about whether it is good enough. I know that the most important thing for me, is just to keep my mindfulness, because if I don’t, if I think that there is something so urgent that I have to leave all my resolutions behind, then I know in no time I will end up somewhere with my head in the clouds, and stress in my body. I know that if I can keep my attention here, I will be fine, things will turn out all right one way or another, and I will be safe from harm. I will not lose myself. And I will not achieve great things, the kind of things you read about in b